My LEO
Shiny badge on his chest, glock on his hip, eight pointed hat on straight...
I never thought I'd be in a relationship with a Police Officer. For someone who struggles with anxiety, 8 months ago I would have been scared to death at the thought of my boyfriend being a cop. My mind went into worry mode before the academy even started.
"What if he gets shot?"
"Can I deal with sleeping alone at night?"
"What if he doesn't come home.."
"How will he react to the casualties he'll see?"
The unknown is scary. Knowing that the man I love and adore is going to be out on the streets around people who might care less about him or his life is hard to swallow. Sometimes I remind myself that there is a chance he might not come home, and I have to be aware of that possibility. But my focus isn't on that anymore. I've learned to let go. There are things in life that are out of our control and this is a prime example. His safety and life are in God's hands now. There is no point in worrying about him constantly. That won't make him any safer; it will only make me go crazy. I can only pray that his training and God's watch will bring him home each day.
Despite the worry, there's something comforting knowing that I'm with a Police Officer. A sense of security that makes me feel so safe. There's also a sense of excitement in this new endeavor. It's a new chapter, not only in my LEO's life, but in mine too. There is a sense of pride that is indescribable. Knowing that he is willing to risk his life for the lives of others is so admirable.
Yesterday was his graduation and let me tell you, there's something about a man in uniform. Every officer looked so put together and in sync. Those white gloves and bagpipes playing in the background...cue the tears! I lost it. It was hard not to. That is a moment that I will never forget. It was surreal seeing him as a Police Officer and with such a serious look on his face! Despite the fact that he is officially a LEO, I still think of him as the same goofy boyfriend I've been with for the past 3 years. I adore him.
I can only imagine how stressful this job will be but I have all the faith in the world in him and his abilities to overcome any obstacle that comes his way. He knows I am here to listen and comfort him whenever need be. I might not always understand exactly what he is going through, but I'm damn well going to try.
I can't wait to see what this year has in store for us and I know this is just the beginning for my LEO. There is so much opportunity to learn and grow in this career field, and I have a feeling he will go far.
You are my world and words cannot describe how proud I am of you. I feel extremely blessed to have experienced this milestone with you and your family. I know this job isn't going to be easy but I know you are going to be an amazing Police Officer and I love you so much! I'm ALWAYS here for you. Don't ever forget that. You did it! On to the next chapter :)
I never thought I'd be in a relationship with a Police Officer. For someone who struggles with anxiety, 8 months ago I would have been scared to death at the thought of my boyfriend being a cop. My mind went into worry mode before the academy even started.
"What if he gets shot?"
"Can I deal with sleeping alone at night?"
"What if he doesn't come home.."
"How will he react to the casualties he'll see?"
The unknown is scary. Knowing that the man I love and adore is going to be out on the streets around people who might care less about him or his life is hard to swallow. Sometimes I remind myself that there is a chance he might not come home, and I have to be aware of that possibility. But my focus isn't on that anymore. I've learned to let go. There are things in life that are out of our control and this is a prime example. His safety and life are in God's hands now. There is no point in worrying about him constantly. That won't make him any safer; it will only make me go crazy. I can only pray that his training and God's watch will bring him home each day.
Despite the worry, there's something comforting knowing that I'm with a Police Officer. A sense of security that makes me feel so safe. There's also a sense of excitement in this new endeavor. It's a new chapter, not only in my LEO's life, but in mine too. There is a sense of pride that is indescribable. Knowing that he is willing to risk his life for the lives of others is so admirable.
Yesterday was his graduation and let me tell you, there's something about a man in uniform. Every officer looked so put together and in sync. Those white gloves and bagpipes playing in the background...cue the tears! I lost it. It was hard not to. That is a moment that I will never forget. It was surreal seeing him as a Police Officer and with such a serious look on his face! Despite the fact that he is officially a LEO, I still think of him as the same goofy boyfriend I've been with for the past 3 years. I adore him.
I can only imagine how stressful this job will be but I have all the faith in the world in him and his abilities to overcome any obstacle that comes his way. He knows I am here to listen and comfort him whenever need be. I might not always understand exactly what he is going through, but I'm damn well going to try.
I can't wait to see what this year has in store for us and I know this is just the beginning for my LEO. There is so much opportunity to learn and grow in this career field, and I have a feeling he will go far.
You are my world and words cannot describe how proud I am of you. I feel extremely blessed to have experienced this milestone with you and your family. I know this job isn't going to be easy but I know you are going to be an amazing Police Officer and I love you so much! I'm ALWAYS here for you. Don't ever forget that. You did it! On to the next chapter :)
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